Nothingness

I have died, I feel nothing but death.
All I can do is cry.
I am not allowed to love him.
I failed.
I hate myself.
I feel like this will never go away.
I will be empty forever.

Life is different here she says it's not Camouflage with gold

Once upon a time there was a girl. He would stay up all night to hear her voice. He would give up the ocean to see her. He would leave heart shaped rocks by her pillow. He would cry at the thought of loosing her, after making love to her, overwhelmed by what he felt for her. He would look at her like she was the most sacred thing in all the earth.
She failed.

Woke up far away
A place I didn't know
A woman smiled at me
She said, welcome to my home
Life is different here she says it's not
Camouflage with gold
And hey leave the light on for me
And hey leave the light on for me